People's Instinctive Travels and the Paths of Rhythm

Right about now I think I am quite disillusioned with myself. In a time where I'm about to leave things just seem so out of place....it's hard to describe it. At home, there are all these plans to renovate the house, with my friends they're all starting to go their own paths as I am going on my own. With that the tangled trees in between our paths just start to get more tangled and greater in number. Deep down I think inside I'm doing this to myself because I am moving away and starting off somewhere else; I'm getting all disillusioned with everything because I'm the wheel in the cog that's getting removed and my place no longer fits properly like it did. For someone who has never really done much for himself (Admittedly and ashamedly out of procrastination and other excuses) it's a big shock to the system. I'm hyping the situation probably and it won't be so bad, but going it alone is such a big change that I can't help worry about these things. See, i'm quite the "stressed eric" and worry and fret and think about things moreso than needed :P. Anyhoo, apologies for this rather depressing post :P.

Water Got No Enemy

Out of all the songs I've been listening to recently, this one has to be the one song that's resonated the most. Maybe that's because of the..er..."time" associated with it, which in hindsight probably does have a big role to play, but to be honest every time I do listen to it I just feel im drifting away slowly into the sunset - like the credits of a massive film called "Life - the end of an era" is rolling and this song is just accompanying those credits with pictures of events in my life. There's something so resolute and positive in this song that it feels like it's high note for the ending. When I think about it though, I reckon it's mostly to do with the ending of an era of me and TK and our free jams - we ended it on a good note and my nostalgic senses have gone into overdrive as a result. That's why I think I keep hearing this song with ending credits - the actors all playing their parts in this film and moving onto their new projects, making different films and getting into new roles, ones you'd never think to see them in.

As well as being positive, it makes me sad at the same time, as nostalgic trips tend to do - in the same way you feel sad if a really good film comes to an end, you also relish the good ending that comes along with it. Still, maybe there's always time for a sequel eh?

Deep Fried Frenz

Hi kids! Today we're going to make eggrolls from banana skins. Right, what you do is open up a banana, take the skin and dash it on someone's forehead. The natural oils in a person's skin just exfoliates the skin and gives it a natural and nutritious combination of vitamin c and antioxidants - so get the most oiliest and greasiest person you know, throw that skin and make sure you feel that resinous texture in your hand. The oil allows you to get that really high cholesterol flavour but in a much more healthier way. I think it's just absolutely divine.

Now once you have that done, what you need to do is get the banana and chop it up into small pieces and take the peel; this part is VITAL so take heed with what im about to write next. The peel will be used to make the egg whites. That's right, the egg whites. So what you do is, take the peel, throw it in a blender with milk, paint stripper and dulux paint at exactly 20 ml, 1 litre and 10 litres. Blend for 20 minutes until you get this really rich, gelatinous and gorgeous feel to it. Take this amazing mixture into a baking tray and place the banana sking in a circle in the middle of the mixture.

Put this into the oven at gasmark 4 and leave for half an hour until a crispy and crunchy contortion comes out of the oven and there we have our egg roll.

Best served with a bowl of feta cheese and whisky.

Enjoy this sumptious morsel as it's the perfect summer and date food!

14 Years: Nostalgia

This is the first time I've written a poem in about 3-4 years and it has to be listened to the Fat Jon track , 14 Years, for the whole bang. Peace!

The quaint sound of a broken record permeates the room,

Its chicago jazz dancing across like a debutante searching for a groom.

The reverberations puncuate my ear, searching

for a cerebral bank of memories

The trigger sets off a forest of sepia toned feeling,

With falling autumn leaves hung in suspense in the eternity of mind.

I walk through my mind's eye and touch the blue and white ceiling

of clouds; my hand caressing their warm innocence inside.

I dive into the rush of calm nostalgia,

Swimming in a rouge ocean of tender

Romantism. I stop and float into the cerulean depths of meloncholy

Drifting to the bottom, looking for the tranquility,

With an anchor weighting for the moment.

A dark bed bursts, body flung up and a whisk of wind!

The scent of the gale generously gliding over

Pulling -- into a kaleidoscope of sound

With the echo coating the apoethetic snow-capped mountains, green vistas and golden deserts.

The cosmic rhythm guides me freely, Inviting me, before the eyes open

And the broken record has started again.

Omni

It's a song by Five Deez, a hip hop group from cincinatti with Fat Jon as the producer (you can hear his sound all over this album). Their actual name stands for the fifth dimension, which according to them is the "dimension where you experience music". Kinda cool eh? Some of their lyrics are pretty deep and interesting when you engage with it, especially one that goes "And times change, like the falling autumn leaves, personalities are cemented in this present state, most people become content, no thoughts of more buildin' off now". You know what? lemme just post that shizzle up:

(When in the world are you going to settle down

and start doing something with yourself?)



[Hook 2X]

I know what you wanna know
(An intellectual, fate offers no hint)

I see what you wanna see

(I think I might like to see you)



[Verse 1]

Now you know the way I wanna be

You see the direction, create the cross sections

Movin' me to places to soak up the lessons

Dried my tears years ago with no question

But you seem better from the back

More space to function with

Motion's not restricted to what I give it

Completely fill your area like liquid

No untouched surface greater than what's less

Than is expected of all men

Projected a few before you elected a few

(Who knew?) I would be the one you had to have

Full body massage with the words of my choice

Sound healin' is produced with the science of man

You should keep your eye on it if you rely on it

Chase whatever makes you wanna change vapor

Understanding consequences

What exactly is this? Who exactly are you?

Are you me enough to know what I know when

You seein' us

I watch it all begin to spin over and over again

But it's never the same I feel

And when I finish the sentence what really remains?

Now I'm boardin' the plane to go exist on another



[Hook 2X]



[Verse 2]

(Close) I haven't been this way with most

Learned aggression, hate, and love too

A lotta what I think is based off my perception

As I travel, it makes sense, movin' me mo'

And times change

Like the fallin' autumn leaves, personalities are cemented

In this present state, most people become content

No thoughts of more, only buildin' off the now but

Then never changes, at least we never see it

We want what will be to be beautiful and just to happen

(But it doesn't work that way)

(It all stays the same at the end of the evenin')

You lay and contemplate sunrise and sundown

Who made the best decisions?

Was it you, somebody you know, or a stranger?

And if anything, what did you learn?

Are you equipped to just weep? (No shame)

Because you know what life is

A collection of seconds that we watch go by

And some times for not and at sometimes for

But all times livin' with a question on ya mind

Pain and freedom, fear and independence

Chances, mind games, war, and only breathin'

Unknown to known facts, insecurities

Confidence, sadness, faith, and what you know now



[Hook 2x]

Afterthought

Whenever I listen to this sort of alternative hip hop I'm always transported to another world. One full of nostalgia, melancholy, happiness and a tranquil calm all in one. It's like trip hop but just more hypnotic because it has this constant rhythm that keeps you drawn in while the accommodating music around it takes you to the other places, all drawing you out in different directions simultaneously but without feeling too straining. I'm just in this really tripped out mood, glossing over my cerebral photobank about the past. Having so much time to yourself to think is really good at first, but as time goes on it kind of wears on you - having only your thoughts and fears about insecurities to occupy your mind can only change your perception of reality and relationships and as a result you tend to shy away, unsure of what to do for things and doubt the potential for the future.

Sigh, ah well good times, bad times eh?

The Groove

These past couple of months have been about re-exploring some of my "old" music and letting how good it is soak in. One of the bands I've been chilling and bopping my head to is Dungen (The Groove in english). It's this strange mix of arabian, jazz and indie with infectious groovy rhythms that you can't help but enjoy. You'll always see me on the train or bus bopping my head to it and just getting into the rhythm, which leads me to my next point. These past few months have been rather uneventful as is a gap year at home (the daily calender seems to fly out of the window), but it's also been a good time for reflection - becoming more easier with myself. Really, one of the biggest epiphany moments was actually a couple of days ago when I was on my way back from China Town and I was jamming to Soil And Pimp Sessions. The more I listened to it, the more it kind of hit me - just be comfortable in my own skin, enjoy my time and stop focusing on what's wrong and get on with things. See, my perspective on things is quite rather strange - it's like a kaleidoscope of negative thoughts brimming in my mind about how people are or how I am in respect to them. Sometimes It's just good to let myself fit into my personality suit and put it on and just walk out and enjoy it. I think alot of kudos goes to Soil and Pimp Sessions because listening to them reminded me of the last time I saw them and I just kind of didn't care about anything and enjoyed the gig fully - jumping around and singing the beats along with the song. I think it's the energy that attracts me to it and gets me positively minded about things.

Because I'm on a gap year doing practically nothing, I've run out of things to say so that's all i'm giving right now :P.

p.s. Michiko To Hatchin is a cool animé, especially the intro song =D