There are times when i feel like im inside of a noir film. I have this exaggerated image of myself in a raincoat and hat, smoking a cigarette gazing...gazing into something intangible. My words aren't coherent but they seem to revolve around short sentences that speak volumes, just like in noir films. The closest thing i can think of is Cowboy Bebop and Spike - he just has this vibe that oozes cool. Im not sure why i have these images....perhaps they're images of what i want to be like; which is a complete oxymoron to myself right now.
It's kind of strange you know, trying to emulate it. Well i say trying but i don't really, i just like the idea. Anyways, this is starting to sound more and more weird as i type it along.
I thought i might try something different this time and talk about pet peeves. There are 3 things that piss me off alot, especially when im in a good mood.
So what's on the list?
1) well first of, i absolutely despise it when individuals come up to me while i have my headphones on and seem to want to pester me than rather than when i have no headphones. I cannot understand the logic behind it. It's simple: Headphones on: DON'T TALK, headphones off, TALK. Jesus fucking christ, it's really annoying especially when you are zoning out to something (as you do with music) and someone comes along and just pushes that button. I swear down if it happens again i will SERIOUSLY switch and just start shouting.
2) Really really girly girls or too many girls in one place. My god, it's like you can see the damn oestrogen flying in the air with the cutesy "OMG YOU LOOK LYK SO BUFF" and all that bollocks.
3)Rich wannabe rudebois. MY GOD, CAN YOU GET ANY MORE STUPID? YOU ARE RICH KIDS WHO THINK THEY ARE FROM BLACK GHETTOS, GET OVER YOUR SPOILT SELVES. FUCKING HELL.
So for now i conclude this list because i cannot think of anything to write about. this is some sort of weird writers block type thing. but it's fun just incessantly typing because it ends up feeling like a stream rather than a constrained turd coming out of a constipated elephant.
anyways laters.
peace.
Friday, 2 May 2008
Monday, 7 April 2008
Sky
Its strange when someone says something monumentally intense to you. I don't think its hit me yet, since im still trying to make sure if i actually read what i read. Right now though, i just don't feel like whats been said has made an impact yet - its a slow going one. I thought i might try something different today; instead of writing so haphazardly i might try and focus my writing a bit more.
You know, whenever i look up at the sky, i see the shackles of responsibility being released and a certain sense of freedom. Not only that, but the sky represents a canvas of different feelings; from the blue skies of tranquility to the brooding London skies that bring about the blues. I feel....like im flying through those irregularly shaped pieces of condensation hanging on the cobalt ceiling, into the blueness of sky itself. That penumbra between earth's atomsphere and space just seems so intriguing, like a boundary that merges into both sides; it epitomises going with the flow....
You know, whenever i look up at the sky, i see the shackles of responsibility being released and a certain sense of freedom. Not only that, but the sky represents a canvas of different feelings; from the blue skies of tranquility to the brooding London skies that bring about the blues. I feel....like im flying through those irregularly shaped pieces of condensation hanging on the cobalt ceiling, into the blueness of sky itself. That penumbra between earth's atomsphere and space just seems so intriguing, like a boundary that merges into both sides; it epitomises going with the flow....
Friday, 4 April 2008
Mind Ecology
If there's something influencing my thoughts right now, it's these two things: Malcolm X's autobiography and Ghost in the shell stand alone complex.
Well firstly, what is deindividuation? psychologically speaking it's the idea of a loss of individuality in large groups - therefore because of this loss of individuality, you also lose your inhibitions, some of your morality and you feel less emotionally anchored by your surroundings. The best examples of deindividuation is in football hooligan crowds, where riots occur through masses that wouldn't normally commit atrocious acts normally. Now although football hooliganism and humbleness are oceans apart, i think the idea of losing something is important. What's lost is where the two differ, and differ they do!
Well, i think in a setting such as on Hajj, where everyone is dressed in the same attire, going to the same places, but are of different colours, races but are all united by Islam, is a setting for humbleness because you lose your ego in the process of gaining brotherhood and appreciating the sheer scale of the muslim ummah around you. By contrast, in a hooliganistic setting you only lose your morality and instead gain a boost in ego.
So when talking about deindividuation, you could ask; what is controlling or leading those crowds to think as a collectively and act with emergent behaviour? well the context is obviously the most important thing - where you are seriously affects how you act: or in other words reciprocal determinism (you are influenced by your environment but you can also influence your environment), however, in crowd situations where you are more deindividuated (and i emphasise MORE rather than a full deindividuation) i believe that this form of reciprocal determinism is more of a social psychological mind rather than an individual mind.
The best example of what i mean by that is emergent behaviour in termites - who can build large complex structures through simpler tasks - like a hive mind. If anyone has seen Ghost in the shell 2: innocence, i think what Batou says beautifully sums up what im trying to say about emergent behaviour: Our buildings represent the inner working of our mental structure...society's backbone idiosyncracies built on mortar and brick.
What he demonstrates here is the social psychological mind is constructed by the collective input of all those individuals within - so all these complex behaviours are the result of a complex social customs. However, unlike ghost in the shell, i disagree that emergent behaviour can have no origin or source, because if we think about the sociological and political changes brought about via religion they originate through prophets or messengers. Certain individuals can influence and bring about changes, but these changes evolve not through majority influence, rather a change in minority influence that slowly builds up into a zeitgeist.
I think though, that ideas originate from a source but as they evolve they can change over time, a bit like chinese whispers if you will.
So this is where the idea of demagogues come into play: i think you can bring about those changes and you can lead masses of people if you can evolve with the context those masses are in: With that you have to be able to feel your audiences reactions if you are to be sucessful, because if you don't follow the line of thought of the crowd than you cannot bring changes or bring about leadership. So to be a good leader what you need most of all is to be able to know your members feelings and to know how to address these issues, where you have indisputably done what you can to rectify anything or bring change that the social mind is thinking of. So in reality, to be a leader you need to know the social mind to a certain extent. So in order to bring social complexes to play you need to add simple adjustments which have a domino effect to creating something new.
One of the most important things regarding humanity as a whole, is the need for unity beyond the physical and we need spiritual or psychological links between Man. This is something i really do believe in, because we are so divided over race, money and insubstantial factors that don't conclude to anything productive for humanity as a whole.
However, i have to be realistic about the notion of humanity uniting beyond race or materialism since we humans are very in tune to our own habitual natures which are built upon immediate materialism and immediate physical appearances. What i want to say is that people enjoy their quirks and habits and if someone or something new tries to enter can break that habit. So trying to bring in unity will be difficult because it will involve treading on people's habits and toes to get them firstly motivated to a cause and secondly not afraid of new things. Even in today's society we are still seperated by these racial boundaries, but only now it's not so explicit, it's alot more implicit and privately kept in order to maintain a falacy of "political correctness".
We need to go beyond these racial boundaries and be united as Man. I can understand why alot of people enter islam - purely because there are no prejudices on what race you are - you can join without being intimidated and feel loved by brothers and sisters from all over.
"The creator has a master plan - peace and love for every man"
Peace.
Well firstly, what is deindividuation? psychologically speaking it's the idea of a loss of individuality in large groups - therefore because of this loss of individuality, you also lose your inhibitions, some of your morality and you feel less emotionally anchored by your surroundings. The best examples of deindividuation is in football hooligan crowds, where riots occur through masses that wouldn't normally commit atrocious acts normally. Now although football hooliganism and humbleness are oceans apart, i think the idea of losing something is important. What's lost is where the two differ, and differ they do!
Well, i think in a setting such as on Hajj, where everyone is dressed in the same attire, going to the same places, but are of different colours, races but are all united by Islam, is a setting for humbleness because you lose your ego in the process of gaining brotherhood and appreciating the sheer scale of the muslim ummah around you. By contrast, in a hooliganistic setting you only lose your morality and instead gain a boost in ego.
So when talking about deindividuation, you could ask; what is controlling or leading those crowds to think as a collectively and act with emergent behaviour? well the context is obviously the most important thing - where you are seriously affects how you act: or in other words reciprocal determinism (you are influenced by your environment but you can also influence your environment), however, in crowd situations where you are more deindividuated (and i emphasise MORE rather than a full deindividuation) i believe that this form of reciprocal determinism is more of a social psychological mind rather than an individual mind.
The best example of what i mean by that is emergent behaviour in termites - who can build large complex structures through simpler tasks - like a hive mind. If anyone has seen Ghost in the shell 2: innocence, i think what Batou says beautifully sums up what im trying to say about emergent behaviour: Our buildings represent the inner working of our mental structure...society's backbone idiosyncracies built on mortar and brick.
What he demonstrates here is the social psychological mind is constructed by the collective input of all those individuals within - so all these complex behaviours are the result of a complex social customs. However, unlike ghost in the shell, i disagree that emergent behaviour can have no origin or source, because if we think about the sociological and political changes brought about via religion they originate through prophets or messengers. Certain individuals can influence and bring about changes, but these changes evolve not through majority influence, rather a change in minority influence that slowly builds up into a zeitgeist.
I think though, that ideas originate from a source but as they evolve they can change over time, a bit like chinese whispers if you will.
So this is where the idea of demagogues come into play: i think you can bring about those changes and you can lead masses of people if you can evolve with the context those masses are in: With that you have to be able to feel your audiences reactions if you are to be sucessful, because if you don't follow the line of thought of the crowd than you cannot bring changes or bring about leadership. So to be a good leader what you need most of all is to be able to know your members feelings and to know how to address these issues, where you have indisputably done what you can to rectify anything or bring change that the social mind is thinking of. So in reality, to be a leader you need to know the social mind to a certain extent. So in order to bring social complexes to play you need to add simple adjustments which have a domino effect to creating something new.
One of the most important things regarding humanity as a whole, is the need for unity beyond the physical and we need spiritual or psychological links between Man. This is something i really do believe in, because we are so divided over race, money and insubstantial factors that don't conclude to anything productive for humanity as a whole.
However, i have to be realistic about the notion of humanity uniting beyond race or materialism since we humans are very in tune to our own habitual natures which are built upon immediate materialism and immediate physical appearances. What i want to say is that people enjoy their quirks and habits and if someone or something new tries to enter can break that habit. So trying to bring in unity will be difficult because it will involve treading on people's habits and toes to get them firstly motivated to a cause and secondly not afraid of new things. Even in today's society we are still seperated by these racial boundaries, but only now it's not so explicit, it's alot more implicit and privately kept in order to maintain a falacy of "political correctness".
We need to go beyond these racial boundaries and be united as Man. I can understand why alot of people enter islam - purely because there are no prejudices on what race you are - you can join without being intimidated and feel loved by brothers and sisters from all over.
"The creator has a master plan - peace and love for every man"
Peace.
Wednesday, 2 April 2008
Variations Op. 41
It's been strange recently; hearing of all this bad news recently - first my aunt breaking her leg , then my uncle in pakistan who's had to have surgery for a weakened heart, followed by a family friend who's having renal problems and now tehreem's uncle passing away...it's almost as if bad karma or something beyond the palpable is at work. What's worse is the deepened uncertainty of what my future ahead holds in store, university is sort of a no go right now and im not sure what to do or where to go.
The idea of formality and responsibility is really scary for me, i don't know particularly why, but i just feel the need to procrastinate my childhood out alot more longer than should be. Everything is very scrambled and irresponsible to say the least :P. All i can say on the matter (since it's one i dilligently evade alot since im a lazy turd) is needs sorting (ah i love the oxymoronic view point).
Man, if there's one thing i've been doing this holiday and doing well is being a hermit. Hell if there was a PhD available i'd be signed up for it :P. There's two reasons for it: firstly, in the holidays at this time of the year, i usually only talk to people on msn, but that's gotten to a point where it's just stale and mundane. Because of it its almost like being stuck here in this house has made me bit brain dead, where thinking and communicating was something i've not done in a long time....i suppose that's why im writing now, since this seems more like a last resort than anything, besides im not really interested in making small talk because i don't feel it makes you feel you're particularly evolving with the person - which is why i probably hate going on msn since alot of people just do that. But saying that though, im a hypocrite because i never can instigate anything that's more substantial than small talk (mainly because i can't think of anything that really begs me to ask people about it) so i just help the cycle. With the hermiting, i feel im a bit more crazier, a bit more unstructured and disorganised with my writing, my sense of speech and mannerisms. Im confused with alot of things to say the least, but most of all im confused with what to do or where to go.
If there's one thing i'd say about myself is that im a irresponsible, useless individual alot of the time, who has a certain lack of intuition or common sense. I don't say that lightly or comically, but bitterly. I know it's the truth and i SHOULD do something about it, but i feel that because i SHOULD i feel im being pressed into it because it's what is expected and not what i expect - out of my control, in an external locus. So once again, the jagged disc revolves back around to the idea of a lack of control and the question of what it takes to accept responsibility. There's something in me saying "yes you should do something about it rather than conjecturing" but how can you just do it....breaking old habits of insecurities is hard to do, and like the title of the post suggests, doing it leads to variations (the ups of momentarily defeating it only to come around - old habits die hard).
Anyways, this pointless rant about lack of responsibility doesn't feel potent enough to make me want to do something about it, but it's just nice to have something written down and communicated to whoever. It's not even thoughts...it's just random squabble coming out....lemme see if i can think of anything occupying my mind.
well thinking about it for a minute, it's just weird images of colours contorting than evolving into a swirl and spiral of a plethora of colours that look shiny and metallic. Actually what's strange is the bout of dreams that i've had either involving epic battles in places in between something out of Tron or The Matrix....i remember this one dream where the whole place was in black with neon colours all over the place but there was normality as well with surburbia greenery mixed in with that dark black. We (a group of resistence fighters) were running from authority figures, through the houses until we came to some sort of cable car structure but was made out of bricks. The fighters decided in order to finish the war we'd have to blow the core - which could be seen anywhere in this city (? i think that's what it was - the places where this dream took place reminds me of something of the hills around hollywood, with the random scattering of lights in a sea of black which the roads and houses occupy). The core looked like a large white structure, though brilliantly white, there was something malicious about it, something that just gave you the idea of hostility and a bleak coldness to morality and the right thing to do. So we went on this cable car to the core, but what really struck me was this idea of "The One" that's present in the matrix - usually in these types of dreams im usually that sort of figure, but in this one i helped "The One" get to the goal he needed. Oh yeah with these dreams, im never in first person either - it's always third person. Maybe i just have no faith in myself that i've settled for third person....damn that's bad and needs recifying.
Anyways it's getting late and im tired. Nice writing this stuff out though, at least some of my thoughts managed to get transcribed. Next time i'll try and mention Malcolm X's autobio and GITS SAC. til then - ciao!
The idea of formality and responsibility is really scary for me, i don't know particularly why, but i just feel the need to procrastinate my childhood out alot more longer than should be. Everything is very scrambled and irresponsible to say the least :P. All i can say on the matter (since it's one i dilligently evade alot since im a lazy turd) is needs sorting (ah i love the oxymoronic view point).
Man, if there's one thing i've been doing this holiday and doing well is being a hermit. Hell if there was a PhD available i'd be signed up for it :P. There's two reasons for it: firstly, in the holidays at this time of the year, i usually only talk to people on msn, but that's gotten to a point where it's just stale and mundane. Because of it its almost like being stuck here in this house has made me bit brain dead, where thinking and communicating was something i've not done in a long time....i suppose that's why im writing now, since this seems more like a last resort than anything, besides im not really interested in making small talk because i don't feel it makes you feel you're particularly evolving with the person - which is why i probably hate going on msn since alot of people just do that. But saying that though, im a hypocrite because i never can instigate anything that's more substantial than small talk (mainly because i can't think of anything that really begs me to ask people about it) so i just help the cycle. With the hermiting, i feel im a bit more crazier, a bit more unstructured and disorganised with my writing, my sense of speech and mannerisms. Im confused with alot of things to say the least, but most of all im confused with what to do or where to go.
If there's one thing i'd say about myself is that im a irresponsible, useless individual alot of the time, who has a certain lack of intuition or common sense. I don't say that lightly or comically, but bitterly. I know it's the truth and i SHOULD do something about it, but i feel that because i SHOULD i feel im being pressed into it because it's what is expected and not what i expect - out of my control, in an external locus. So once again, the jagged disc revolves back around to the idea of a lack of control and the question of what it takes to accept responsibility. There's something in me saying "yes you should do something about it rather than conjecturing" but how can you just do it....breaking old habits of insecurities is hard to do, and like the title of the post suggests, doing it leads to variations (the ups of momentarily defeating it only to come around - old habits die hard).
Anyways, this pointless rant about lack of responsibility doesn't feel potent enough to make me want to do something about it, but it's just nice to have something written down and communicated to whoever. It's not even thoughts...it's just random squabble coming out....lemme see if i can think of anything occupying my mind.
well thinking about it for a minute, it's just weird images of colours contorting than evolving into a swirl and spiral of a plethora of colours that look shiny and metallic. Actually what's strange is the bout of dreams that i've had either involving epic battles in places in between something out of Tron or The Matrix....i remember this one dream where the whole place was in black with neon colours all over the place but there was normality as well with surburbia greenery mixed in with that dark black. We (a group of resistence fighters) were running from authority figures, through the houses until we came to some sort of cable car structure but was made out of bricks. The fighters decided in order to finish the war we'd have to blow the core - which could be seen anywhere in this city (? i think that's what it was - the places where this dream took place reminds me of something of the hills around hollywood, with the random scattering of lights in a sea of black which the roads and houses occupy). The core looked like a large white structure, though brilliantly white, there was something malicious about it, something that just gave you the idea of hostility and a bleak coldness to morality and the right thing to do. So we went on this cable car to the core, but what really struck me was this idea of "The One" that's present in the matrix - usually in these types of dreams im usually that sort of figure, but in this one i helped "The One" get to the goal he needed. Oh yeah with these dreams, im never in first person either - it's always third person. Maybe i just have no faith in myself that i've settled for third person....damn that's bad and needs recifying.
Anyways it's getting late and im tired. Nice writing this stuff out though, at least some of my thoughts managed to get transcribed. Next time i'll try and mention Malcolm X's autobio and GITS SAC. til then - ciao!
Sunday, 3 February 2008
Wednesday, 23 January 2008
The Creator Has A Master Plan
Moo. That's the word right now. As well as Mum. I never knew how boring sitting on the net can be. Now the animés are really kicking in for enjoyment, although i have to say im glad i got the pharoah sanders ticket sorted out. Well chuffed seeing ze legend in action. Also im absolutely loving Monster, i cannot iterate enough, that animé has the most complex character development i've ever seen in an animé. It's incredible how everything intertwines in random bits linking together. An existential journey to how we live - some in despair seeking death and looking at the world in futility - real nihilists and others looking at the world for connections you can make to the soul. These characters have their backgrounds to how it all works. It's not just a journey for Tenma the main character searching for the demon outside him, it's also in him and how he tries to cope with the Monster that resides. It's seriously awesome - i cannot believe the complexity of the storyline, it's very well written. I have to admit, some bits are slightly tacked on, but you're gonna find that nearly anywhere with a complex story with exceedingly complex characters. You can even see the emotions on people's faces done well, even though the animation is dated. For me the biggest highlight is, without a shadow of a doubt, the character development. I've spoken enough about that, but i cannot praise it enough. Even the political veins through the story let their blood flow through to the heart of the story and the complex characters. I wish i watched it in full rather than randomly piecing it, because watching it randomly has made the story seem longer than it really is and perhaps made the thing a bit weird with the tacked on bits. So yes, Monster = very awesome.
The most interesting thing happened yesterday though - talking online with the T-1000 Turok about the nature of the universe and the dimensional aspects to these universes. It was the most intense conversation i've had in a very long time philosophically. The last i remember something like that was back in BCB staying at Adz house. Ah that was a good time - staying up all night just talking about the directions in life and having an existential talk. What the conversation yesterday was about was mainly to do with how because the world never remains constant and everything is recycled - whether it be nutrients or history's lessons and traditions (btw wtf is postmodernism? is it just another culture? i mean everything we do is "modern" so if you go past postmodernism isn't that the future? or just something more modern? - i digress again) that it's an illusion - which is a fair enough judgement. But the real meat was how the prophet SAW travelled on the Buraj to the heavens, beyond where even Gabriel (could never spell the arab version) couldn't go. It was like going through as light. Afterall the prophet SAW is called the noor of the land. Furthermore, it says that those who enter heaven shall be given eyes to comprehend the light of heaven. Light itself is energy (photons, etc) but it got me thinking - there's only a small spectrum of light we can visibly see (hence visible spectrum) but there's so much more light we can't see - UV, Gamma, X-ray, etc. So would this light be of the same sort? i doubt it would even be one of the examples i gave - afterall it's in another dimension beyond this, where there could be different forms of light. Hell we don't even know what's going on in our dimensions. Afterall, as Hume suggested "Science is ultimately based on faith" because all of the causal links made are not easy to prove. He made a valid point - where humans make a causal link between one thing and another, when it's possible that they aren't linked. For example, if i throw a brick at a window and the window smashes - it's possible that the window might not smash and that automatically we assume brick - window - smashed.
But that aside - look at how science works. Take chemistry, almost ALL of chemistry is based on theories and mathematical assumptions which are based on other theories. For example, no-one really knows how catalysts work, or what exactly the atomic structure is or what's INSIDE an atom - there's electrons and protons and quarks and all that, but it's mostly theory. My point being that though there's empirical evidence to SUGGEST that these might be right - we'll never know for sure. Same with the THEORY of evolution - it's merely suggestions. So fair enough, science is the closest thing we are gonna get to some reasonable sense of the world, but our reason should also look at the fact at the MASSIVE gaping holes in our knowledge of the world and how possibly we should doubt even the science many of us depend on - afterall scientists try and doubt each other as much as they can - for ego's sake or to prove a theory false and come up with another one. Don't get me wrong - there are rules - like we cannot create or destroy energy, but these rules are few and far.
So back to the topic, the prophet SAW went through these dimensions as perhaps different forms of light (this is another theory mind you :D) and i think the connection for those forms is the soul. Maybe that's why scientists cannot figure out why our weight is more than all the calculations suggest - the soul is there, waiting to be released after death, to be transformed and taken into different places. Just like how light can be refracted or converted to different energy - e.g. light from a bulb as well as heat. Now you might think if God is made up of light, then could he be (yes here cometh the blasphemy) and i think the answer is simply no - it goes back to the rule "energy cannot be made or destroyed" as well as if god was omniscient and omnipowerful and all the other omnis (apart from omnious and related ones) then it would surely make no sense to be able to be refracted in the same way - light in our dimension can be bent or reflected, but i don't think god's light is the same purely because it's the source. I think what the world and nature show us is the minute fraction of God's light being poured down in its visible form to humans - the genius of god's creation. I think i also have an answer for those who say how can god be cruel - everything is recycled in this world - our own bodies are recycled - so in reality we (physically) become part of god's creation on earth and these dimensions (if we pass beyond earth into the known universe). It also says in the scriptures that those who suffer in their souls in this world will be recompensated in the hereafter or in other words - another dimension. As for how can god exist without time if he "created" (created is past tense therefore how could he have creat-ed if he doesn't live in time or space) is purely for the fact that god is in another dimension or outside dimensions even - he is not limited. Perhaps infinity is another dimension - and that might seem paradoxical, afterall dimensions imply limits but inifite is not limited. That i suppose is the closest thing i could possibly call it. Some people might call that an unreasonable cop out, but i ask them to look into how empirically we could prove otherwise - and i highlight PROVE.
Furthermore, because we cannot in full prove much, this world hasn't got many truths to it (metaphysically i mean - not colloquially or mundanely in human livelihood) therefore it perhaps is really illusionary. Personally im of the grey part where belief is sometimes all we got to rely on.
Oh yeah, i'm loving Green Milk's stuff, incredibly progressive but refreshing with a taste of Kraut rock in it. It's like a mix of colour haze and mars volta but just longer - the songs don't seem to be that epic, they just seem like jamming moments all the time but with a purpose - a subtle but energetic one - due to the kraut influences. Oh yeah, looking at other posts, thought i might stick a picture up so i think i might use a classic BCB folk tale of art times one:
Ah the beautiful picture that was plagarised for an art exam - lovely :).
speaking of nice pictures, was looking through the old hokusai pics and still love them.
peace out.
The most interesting thing happened yesterday though - talking online with the T-1000 Turok about the nature of the universe and the dimensional aspects to these universes. It was the most intense conversation i've had in a very long time philosophically. The last i remember something like that was back in BCB staying at Adz house. Ah that was a good time - staying up all night just talking about the directions in life and having an existential talk. What the conversation yesterday was about was mainly to do with how because the world never remains constant and everything is recycled - whether it be nutrients or history's lessons and traditions (btw wtf is postmodernism? is it just another culture? i mean everything we do is "modern" so if you go past postmodernism isn't that the future? or just something more modern? - i digress again) that it's an illusion - which is a fair enough judgement. But the real meat was how the prophet SAW travelled on the Buraj to the heavens, beyond where even Gabriel (could never spell the arab version) couldn't go. It was like going through as light. Afterall the prophet SAW is called the noor of the land. Furthermore, it says that those who enter heaven shall be given eyes to comprehend the light of heaven. Light itself is energy (photons, etc) but it got me thinking - there's only a small spectrum of light we can visibly see (hence visible spectrum) but there's so much more light we can't see - UV, Gamma, X-ray, etc. So would this light be of the same sort? i doubt it would even be one of the examples i gave - afterall it's in another dimension beyond this, where there could be different forms of light. Hell we don't even know what's going on in our dimensions. Afterall, as Hume suggested "Science is ultimately based on faith" because all of the causal links made are not easy to prove. He made a valid point - where humans make a causal link between one thing and another, when it's possible that they aren't linked. For example, if i throw a brick at a window and the window smashes - it's possible that the window might not smash and that automatically we assume brick - window - smashed.
But that aside - look at how science works. Take chemistry, almost ALL of chemistry is based on theories and mathematical assumptions which are based on other theories. For example, no-one really knows how catalysts work, or what exactly the atomic structure is or what's INSIDE an atom - there's electrons and protons and quarks and all that, but it's mostly theory. My point being that though there's empirical evidence to SUGGEST that these might be right - we'll never know for sure. Same with the THEORY of evolution - it's merely suggestions. So fair enough, science is the closest thing we are gonna get to some reasonable sense of the world, but our reason should also look at the fact at the MASSIVE gaping holes in our knowledge of the world and how possibly we should doubt even the science many of us depend on - afterall scientists try and doubt each other as much as they can - for ego's sake or to prove a theory false and come up with another one. Don't get me wrong - there are rules - like we cannot create or destroy energy, but these rules are few and far.
So back to the topic, the prophet SAW went through these dimensions as perhaps different forms of light (this is another theory mind you :D) and i think the connection for those forms is the soul. Maybe that's why scientists cannot figure out why our weight is more than all the calculations suggest - the soul is there, waiting to be released after death, to be transformed and taken into different places. Just like how light can be refracted or converted to different energy - e.g. light from a bulb as well as heat. Now you might think if God is made up of light, then could he be (yes here cometh the blasphemy) and i think the answer is simply no - it goes back to the rule "energy cannot be made or destroyed" as well as if god was omniscient and omnipowerful and all the other omnis (apart from omnious and related ones) then it would surely make no sense to be able to be refracted in the same way - light in our dimension can be bent or reflected, but i don't think god's light is the same purely because it's the source. I think what the world and nature show us is the minute fraction of God's light being poured down in its visible form to humans - the genius of god's creation. I think i also have an answer for those who say how can god be cruel - everything is recycled in this world - our own bodies are recycled - so in reality we (physically) become part of god's creation on earth and these dimensions (if we pass beyond earth into the known universe). It also says in the scriptures that those who suffer in their souls in this world will be recompensated in the hereafter or in other words - another dimension. As for how can god exist without time if he "created" (created is past tense therefore how could he have creat-ed if he doesn't live in time or space) is purely for the fact that god is in another dimension or outside dimensions even - he is not limited. Perhaps infinity is another dimension - and that might seem paradoxical, afterall dimensions imply limits but inifite is not limited. That i suppose is the closest thing i could possibly call it. Some people might call that an unreasonable cop out, but i ask them to look into how empirically we could prove otherwise - and i highlight PROVE.
Furthermore, because we cannot in full prove much, this world hasn't got many truths to it (metaphysically i mean - not colloquially or mundanely in human livelihood) therefore it perhaps is really illusionary. Personally im of the grey part where belief is sometimes all we got to rely on.
Oh yeah, i'm loving Green Milk's stuff, incredibly progressive but refreshing with a taste of Kraut rock in it. It's like a mix of colour haze and mars volta but just longer - the songs don't seem to be that epic, they just seem like jamming moments all the time but with a purpose - a subtle but energetic one - due to the kraut influences. Oh yeah, looking at other posts, thought i might stick a picture up so i think i might use a classic BCB folk tale of art times one:
Ah the beautiful picture that was plagarised for an art exam - lovely :).
speaking of nice pictures, was looking through the old hokusai pics and still love them.
peace out.
Tuesday, 22 January 2008
You Got To Have Freedom
Well, the exams are finally over. I feel alot less stressed now, but hey it's only a small portion of what's left. Let's see if the ending in June ends with a bang :D. Right now im bare tired, im playing guitar, listening to music and waiting for my downloads to finish including my surfings on the net. Dungen is pretty damn good, although the guy's voice sounds a bit mank at times - then again i do listen to The Mars Volta. This band's stuff reminds me of white stripes mixed with alot more expanding rhythms. I especially love Familj and Sa Blev Datat or whatever it's called. Got back into Monster recently - which is most interesting. It's odd how even though it's been god knows how many months it's just sunk back in. It's starting to get more interesting - there's so many damn characters and their development. I can say confidently it has one of the best storylines character development wise - each character is complex in their own right, from the minor characters to the major ones. In that sense, Monster is a masterpiece. To be honest though, the storyline is waving about alot of the place but i think for me that's coz of my broken viewing of the whole thing.
So what to do now? i got an interview coming up and i really gotta start preparing that one soon because it's in 2 weeks and i really want to smack this manchester one because manchester really is a second home to me. well i think that's all i really wanted to say today - not sure i'd i really wanted to say much, just felt more obligated to write something down because my exams have finished. It's fun doing this no doubt, but it does feel a little tacked on at times.
Oh yeah i've not done anything for Satori, which is something i need to look into - i might start getting him back on track, afterall i only wrote a short bit. But before i write anything i want to plan this thing out - if it's gonna be a short one or a long one. One of my friend's blogs (Adnaan's for that matter) has this wicked short story and it got me thinking about writing one. Not sure if i want to put Satori in one, although i could have it as a chronicle for the big thing. That'd be interesting - kind of like Zelda in it's various forms.
Anyhoo im out. peace.
So what to do now? i got an interview coming up and i really gotta start preparing that one soon because it's in 2 weeks and i really want to smack this manchester one because manchester really is a second home to me. well i think that's all i really wanted to say today - not sure i'd i really wanted to say much, just felt more obligated to write something down because my exams have finished. It's fun doing this no doubt, but it does feel a little tacked on at times.
Oh yeah i've not done anything for Satori, which is something i need to look into - i might start getting him back on track, afterall i only wrote a short bit. But before i write anything i want to plan this thing out - if it's gonna be a short one or a long one. One of my friend's blogs (Adnaan's for that matter) has this wicked short story and it got me thinking about writing one. Not sure if i want to put Satori in one, although i could have it as a chronicle for the big thing. That'd be interesting - kind of like Zelda in it's various forms.
Anyhoo im out. peace.
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