Afterthought

Whenever I listen to this sort of alternative hip hop I'm always transported to another world. One full of nostalgia, melancholy, happiness and a tranquil calm all in one. It's like trip hop but just more hypnotic because it has this constant rhythm that keeps you drawn in while the accommodating music around it takes you to the other places, all drawing you out in different directions simultaneously but without feeling too straining. I'm just in this really tripped out mood, glossing over my cerebral photobank about the past. Having so much time to yourself to think is really good at first, but as time goes on it kind of wears on you - having only your thoughts and fears about insecurities to occupy your mind can only change your perception of reality and relationships and as a result you tend to shy away, unsure of what to do for things and doubt the potential for the future.

Sigh, ah well good times, bad times eh?

The Groove

These past couple of months have been about re-exploring some of my "old" music and letting how good it is soak in. One of the bands I've been chilling and bopping my head to is Dungen (The Groove in english). It's this strange mix of arabian, jazz and indie with infectious groovy rhythms that you can't help but enjoy. You'll always see me on the train or bus bopping my head to it and just getting into the rhythm, which leads me to my next point. These past few months have been rather uneventful as is a gap year at home (the daily calender seems to fly out of the window), but it's also been a good time for reflection - becoming more easier with myself. Really, one of the biggest epiphany moments was actually a couple of days ago when I was on my way back from China Town and I was jamming to Soil And Pimp Sessions. The more I listened to it, the more it kind of hit me - just be comfortable in my own skin, enjoy my time and stop focusing on what's wrong and get on with things. See, my perspective on things is quite rather strange - it's like a kaleidoscope of negative thoughts brimming in my mind about how people are or how I am in respect to them. Sometimes It's just good to let myself fit into my personality suit and put it on and just walk out and enjoy it. I think alot of kudos goes to Soil and Pimp Sessions because listening to them reminded me of the last time I saw them and I just kind of didn't care about anything and enjoyed the gig fully - jumping around and singing the beats along with the song. I think it's the energy that attracts me to it and gets me positively minded about things.

Because I'm on a gap year doing practically nothing, I've run out of things to say so that's all i'm giving right now :P.

p.s. Michiko To Hatchin is a cool animé, especially the intro song =D

Testosterina

For some really odd reason I've been feeling the whole The Fast And Furious vibes; fast modded cars street racing crazily through public places. I was watching Tokyo Drift and I loved the drift races through cosmopolitan places! It's great, even though highly dangerous :P, but i guess that's what so testerone filled about it. As a result, the latest film in the series had to be watched, and for the most part it was pants. However, there's this race in the middle of the film which was awesome! they definitely need more races rather than chases :P.

So aside from the weird modded cars fascination what else has been happening? well first thing is I GOT INTO MEDICINE =D. Well surprised and chuffed about it man! Let the good times roll =D! Recently I've been just chilling and relaxing it out properly, but i've noticed I'm actually getting tense being at home everyday. Being in a room is starting to get to me a bit - We went to adnaan's house after shb's and tk's b-day shindig at the park and as soon as i walked into adnaan's room i really wanted to leave and just camp outside for the night. In a way I think it's a good thing to have that sense of wanting to go out all the time - It'll start tampering with my procastination modes that I have all the time. I even feel a little bit less lazier =D!

One thing I must do is start excercising - im in such bad shape it's starting to show. So note to self: RUN!

The Friendly Galaxies

I once owned a dough making machine.

it decided to jump out the window and lay some battery eggs

those eggs than transformed into a supercomputer that could hack CIA

this was a big thing in the egg kingdom that was always trying to promote peas

see no peas could be 2 in a pod coz them eggs were bare apartheid and were PROPER racist get me

there are two races of peas. the cooked race and the uncooked race. that were both from planet earth.

the earth that was in the 5th nebula of andromeda and therefore it was our earth's equivalent: kalapapaya

...this dramaticaly effected the ozone layer. the wizards that control the sky turned evil and decided to snow.

this weren't no oridinary snow this was pineapple snow where the muffin man could come and lick the street clean like a bum's heaven: he sure was a clean freak

life was all turning into a big lipstick tomato. it tried to spread its love by doing spellings but failed,

however the elf lords of kokori forest wanted to munch sams chicken so they ordered mr tahir sheikh on a dangerous mission to steal sams from the lipstick tomato rooster that loved playing scrabble after church.

the scabble was just a game to play to put him off hardcore insane interacial sex. this outlet was expressed in picking the words through scrabble...xrated scrabble.

but he couldn't resist the interracial sex between the roosters and the leprechauns....the green fur was just WAYY too sexy for him to keep playing scrabble and so freud argued that he had latent oral tendencies since he liked to lick the soul of the inner toe nail

what the leprechauns didnt realise that they could use banana skins to try and imitate the life in the cosmic worlds of stardust love. they all decided to live under 11 rainbows of silverspoons.

the silverspoons that would give them victory over the morally correct george clooney who owned a poodle, a RJ11 and an xbox 360 which gave him all the cosmic radiation to fight the new supertoilet that was coming to invade the asteroid moon orbiting uranus

i shot the sheriff. with a big shotgun made out of tunisian hair.

but FFS i didn't shoot the deputy, not that i should care

.........and that was the end of soloman grandee..........

enter sandman: HEALL YEAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH send whips of opinion down my back give me moreeee.

kyus: GoooaaaWWDD DAAAAOOYYMMNN SOOOOWAN OVVVOAAAA BIIIAAAYYYYCCCCCCCCHHAA!

TIMES CHANGE LIKE THE FALLING AUTUMN COCONUTS IN JAMAICA BUT IN REALITY JAMAICANS DON'T HAVE AUTUMN COZ THEY GOT BARE PIGEONS IN LEOTARDS RUNNING FOR MAYOR OF THE MISTY MOUNTAIN HOPS WHERE THE EVIL GOLLUM JUST RAMBLED ONNNN

...it was so cold and lonely the rain was tearing me up....

wind.. really hurts my feelings. so i decided to write about it in my amazing blog

the long and agonising descent of the snow sent painful lashings of my past memories of hiding in a banana skin....the macarbre peel....the toxicating stench of sugar and the mars bar that the scottish guy used to make banana mars bar.....OOOHH THE HORROR - if you want a no win no fee claim call 0800 657 1256.

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The Mask

I just love this song. here's the lyrics:

[CHORUS] 
Have you ever worn the mask one-two one-two, 
M to the A to the S to the K 
Put the mask upon the face just to make the next day, 
Feds be hawkin me 
Jokers be stalking me, 
I walk the streets and camouflage my identity, 
My posse in the Brooklyn wear the mask. 
My crew in the Jersey wear the mask. 
Stick up kids doing boogie woogie wear the mask. 
Yeah everybody wear da mask but how long will it last. 

[CLEF] 
I used to work at Burger King. A king taking orders. 
Punching my clock. Now I'm wanted by the manager. 
Soupin me up sayin "Your a nice worker," 
"How would you like a quarter raise, move up the register" 
"Large in charge, but cha gotta be my spy, 
Come back and tell me who's baggin my fries, 
Getting high on company time." 
Hell no sirree, wrong M.C. 
Why should I be a spy, when you spying me, 
And you see whatcha thought ya saw but never seen. 
Ya missed ya last move, Checkmate! Crown me King, 
Hold my 22 pistol whipped him in his face. 
Hired now I'm fired, sold bud now I'm wired, 
Eyes pitch red but da beat bop my head 
Hit the streets for relief, I bumped into the Feds, 
I got kidnapped they took me to D.C., 
Have me working underground building missiles for World War III. 

[CHORUS] 
M to the A to the S to the K, 
Put the mask up on the face just to make the next day. 
Brothers be gaming, Ladies be claiming. 
I walk the streets and camouflage my identity. 
My posse Uptown wear the mask. 
My crew in the Queens wear the mask. 
Stick up kids with the Tommy Hil wear the mask. 
Yeah everbody wear the mask but how long will it last. 

[LAURYN] 

I thought he was the wonder, and I was stunned by his lips, 
Taking sips sipping Amaretto sour with a twist, 
Shook my hips to the bass line, this joker grabbed my waistline, 
Putting pressure on my spine trying to get L-Boog to wind, 
I backed up off him then caught him with five finger to his face, 
I had to put him in his place, 
This kids invading my space, 
But then I recognized the smile, but I couldn't place the style, 
So many fronts in his mouth, I thought he was the Golden Child, 
Then it hit me that's Tariq from off the street around Grams. 
I haven't seeen him since fifteen, when he got booked for doing scams. 
I tried to walk away but he wouldn't let me leave, 
He ran up quick behind me asking, "Yo what happened to my nigga 
Steve?" 
Steve was like this kid I went with back in Grammar School. 
I chuckled knucklehead I seen him yesterday he's cool, 
He's busted, "so who you checking for now?" 
Probably some intellectual. 
I kept the conversation straight and he kept trying to make it sexual. 
Then his old lady tried to play me waved her hands up in my face, 
Yo I told her check your man cause Bitch you acting out of place. 

[CHORUS] 
M to the A to the S to the K, 
Put the mask up on the face just to make the next day. 
Brothers be frontin, Then they be runnin, 
I walk the streets and camouflage my identity. 
My posse in the Bronx wear the mask
My crew on the hour wear the mask.
Stick up kids rollin' in the Omni wear the mask
Yeah everbody wear the mask but how long will it last. 

[PRAZ] 
3 A.M. in the morning on the Boulevard, 
I'm still at large engaged with my entourage, 
Me and Godfather and a 67 Dodge. 
I stepped out the note to post up my guard 
Searching for my car that was stolen from Scotland Yard. 
My first instinct was to check the chop shop garage. 
As I rung the bell someone tapped me on my back, 
I turned around to look it was a rookie in a mask. 
He said, "I got a itchin' on my trigger, 
Don't move nigga I'm taking you for murder." 
See cops got two faces like two laces on my Reeboks. 
My knees knock as I step back for a claear shot, 
Well did you shoot him? Naw kid I didn't have the balls, 
That's when I realized I'm pumpin'too much Biggie Smalls. 

[CHORUS] 
M to the A to the S to the K, 
Put the mask up on the face just to make the next day. 
Brothers be beafin, Cops be theivin
Brothers be sceamin', And should be teamin'
Jokers be smokin it, And stay broke in it,
B*tches be teasin, Get money sleazin',
N*gga's be creapin', Baby mothers be weapin',
I walk the streets and camouflage my identity. 
My posse in the Haiti wear the mask,
My crew in Jamaica wear the mask 
Stick up kids bumpin Fu-Gee-La wear the mask 
Yeah everbody wear the mask but how long will it 

Guardian Angel

So like im on a wireless keyboard - its revelationssssssssssssssssssssssss!

You know, Juno Reactor is pretty good! after hearing the xavier edit for texholnyse i can't watch that anime without watching the intro song - the whole industrial feel of the anime is all pinpointed by that song - the whole intro feels like it was made for that song. The anime is class - I love the artwork and animation where there's this whole gritty feel to it and there isn't much dialogue in it but you just feel like there's this sense of depression seeping out of the buildings that have been drawn - a sense of oppression and caste divides. I've only seen a few episodes but I do like it - I really want to sink my teeth into it but it's a little hard to follow without much dialogue :P. 

so er yeah wow i saw a pussycat dancing in the twilight looking for answers to a healthy alternative to chicken and chips.

This week has been a real nostalgia trip - a good one at. On tuesday i met up with CZ after around a year and man it felt good in a a platonic way. All those awkward moments and feelings seem to dissipate when we just got down to sitting down and catching up. When I went I thought to myself "maybe these feelings are going to bubble up to the surface - maybe all those memories are going to come back" but once we there they didn't =). However halifax made mention of it and they started coming back so im trying to figure out a way to (as the physicists say) "earth the current". Gotsta see when ze time comes and we be hustlin and hustlinnnnnz

safe i dunno what else to write coz im bare hypers and on a roll on my halo of desireeeeeee but i think i might see cloud 9 on a 6 that looks like a 5.

Park Bench People

There are those times when you just feel like you need to sit on a park bench and think things through - somewhere neutral without anything to immediately affect anything you want to do. Right now is one of those moments - you see right now i feel like that about alot of things. Talking to my bro was kind of enlightening about how i should really start to think about the future more seriously - how do i want my kids to turn out? what i value most is a set of moral principles and a self-confidence that won't hinder them like it's hindered me. Where do i want to be after 5 years? in all honesty - working and starting to actually have a career in focus and the wheel works actually moving. 

Another thing that i'm thinking of is something that's just been bugging me recently...right now i don't feel like talking the same way anymore....in a weird way though it's made me see things that i didn't put much effort into before - weird eh? i hope it fixes and i hope to do something about it. 

On a more lighter note I had the best jam i've ever had with anyone - me and shuaib and then me and adz with the changing members playing drums and me on the guitar. I actually got so into it i was getting into a trance feel - everything felt like it was connecting. I even got to the stage where i felt like i was in the woods and just feeling like i was at peace - the closest sensation to the feeling was like the salvia trip only not so forceful - it felt like a pure natural high. I need to do that again because man those types of feelings are the ones you want to hold onto....it's weird after not playing guitar for a while i went and had an amazing jam - almost as if i'd be penting up alot of stuff in order to get what i wanted out across finally. Hell i was so tranced out i didn't even realise adz sister walk in! and neither did adz - we got so into it....im glad we finally had a moment like that you know. sometimes we find it hard to talk to each other - one or the other will keep it kosher but this felt like a moment where we dropped all the boundaries and just talked like we hadn't talked in a long time. I even felt lighter talking to adz afterwards and the same goes for shuaib....im glad we all jammed together it was a nice feeling =).

Peace =)