Like Leaves In The Wind

Oh yeah, well vexed about SirensSounds being taken down. That was the best post/math rock site on the net. 

Reducing Agent

Man, i remember when i actually enjoyed chemistry. Those were good days, however sad that might sound. I think what i like about chemistry the most is the abstract ideas and theories that people use and come up with using purely mathematical idioms. It's strange, you can be so creative in thinking how things react and bond together or how energy is released or absorbed or what kind of products you get, yet be practical and logical at the same time. In that sense i prefer it to other sciences because of the balance between those two aspects, because it allows you to play around with ideas to see if you can get it right. Besides you get alot of colour in chemistry - one of the best chemical reactions is the flame test (combustion) of Barium metal. That foresty green colour is very beautiful and more fascinating when you hear the theory of how the metal's electons in their electron shells are energised and therefore ascend to a higher electron shell, but are unstable at that higher energy level so they release photons as they descend - i.e. light. The amount of energy released is at certain lightwave lengths and so we can see it as colour (if its within the visible region). The same goes for transition metal complexes, where the splitting of d-orbitals (caused by bonding to ligands i.e. molecules that donate electrons to a central metal atom/ion) causing light to be absorbed by electrons in the lower d-orbital from the split to ascend to the higher level. The light that isn't absorbed is the colour that is seen - i.e. the complementary colour of the lightwave length absorbed is the one seen, so for example if yellow is absorbed the solution will be seen as blue as blue is complementary to yellow.

Chemistry is fascinating like that, as well as the idea of ratios and give and take - which i think should be applied to life too. I believe in balance and I also believe in god giving us signs (similar to how karma works) and us trying to react to those signs (which is kind of why i had the title as Reducing Agent). Recently alot of people have been saying certain actions are a waste of time, which the more and more i think about it the more and more it seems true. To be honest i don't like sitting in cestpools of my own self pity anymore - it drives me nuts and goes against my own principles. So no matter how bad i may feel about it i'll just let it go because at the end of the day, its not worth bringing myself down. There's alot more to do and say man, alot more shizzle. Granted i might feel bad about it but i think im starting to learn how to control myself more. So whatever happens, happens (as Spike says in Cowboy Bepop). So is this a positive post? maybe, im neurotic enough to obsess about things but i think im also calm enough to use rationale. Odd eh?

Ramshackle

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I need to prioritise things in my mind and get things sorted out. I'm wasting too much time now. Enough emo shit.